va1ar

Didn't thought that it will come so fast-iblinking and see half life that passes by and I'm not even sure that I rremember the second part. Life full of regrets an "what if" tons of doubts, fool decisionmaking, pissing myself off.everything that I ever wanted were close but i just didn't notice it,or thought too much b4 it was too late. Never saw myself sitting in the office room with clerks dealing with papers and answering all the stupid  calls or initiating them."perfect job for one" I realise that I must change it now.or it will never end.time for second defiance in my life , second defiance to myself -change ill never regret

ye right after getting my new bamboo i went to the hospital without any possibility and mood to draw , create , study or smth else , but thats in past im back , have tons of work to do for university and pass all the exams) all my pictures after i came back hope are unfinished and i dont rly want to finalize them, no mood for it , but i started my work on New Day , smthing that i want to finish and be proud of) first versions of it in my scraps)  still wondering how ppl create amazing works in couple of hours and i keep working on one for couple of days and still see mistakes and "wrong" things inside? a bit sad)

i fixed my old genius g-pen 459 , but also bought bamboo fun today , its rly cool and so comfortable , will check it in work) just one problem that i saw is that it 's wide and my screen is 2 old and has 1024 x 768 resolution , but im happy anyway) BeWaRe! new pics incoming soon ;)